I entered marriage full of hope—not just for the love my husband and I would share, but for the family I prayed God would give us. My wedding day was perfect in every way, though it started with my period arriving. But I wasn’t discouraged because I knew that, just a few days later, I would be in my fertility window. It was no accident that our honeymoon in Zanzibar aligned perfectly with that time. I believed everything was falling into place.
The Waiting Begins
After our honeymoon, the two-week wait began—a time filled with anticipation, hope, and endless Googling. I read every article about the earliest signs of pregnancy, learning about implantation bleeding and how the body feels in those first weeks. Every little cramp, twinge, or ache felt like a possible sign.
As the days passed and I approached the time my period was due, I stayed hopeful. I imagined the excitement of seeing my period not arrive, of knowing God had answered my prayers. But then it came. My period arrived, and with it, a wave of disappointment that I hadn’t prepared for.
I remember crying that day. My husband found me in tears, and I told him how much I had hoped. I had wanted this so badly, and I couldn’t understand why it wasn’t happening. He wrapped me in his arms and reminded me of something I needed to hear: God’s timing is always perfect, even when it doesn’t match our own.
Lessons in Faith and Patience
That first month taught me that faith isn’t about getting everything you want right when you want it. It’s about trusting God through the waiting, even when it’s hard. I continued to pray, to write letters to God, and to hold onto hope.
I realized that the journey of trying to conceive wasn’t just about becoming a mother. It was about growing in patience, resilience, and trust in God’s plan. I still believe that the dream of motherhood is not denied—it’s only delayed.
Join the Journey
Are you in a season of waiting? Have you experienced the emotional ups and downs of TTC? Let’s share and encourage one another on this path. Leave a comment below or explore more reflections from my journey.